God give me patience to bear the unbearable... Understanding, to sort what I don't get... Empathy, to place myself in another's shoes... & self control, so I don't get in trouble!! XD :P
Monday, November 28, 2011
"Mr. Right"
Q- If you waste your whole life waiting for the guy you think is “Mr. Right” to ask you out, yet all the while totally deny yourself the chance to possibly find happiness with a guy who is not what you ever imagined you would grow to like as more than a friend, is that subjecting yourself to a life alone? One, who seems to be “Mr. Right” only looks the part. The other, “Mr. Idk”, loves you for you, has told you so, and continues to try to be ‘something’ for you. He doesn’t seem to fit the image you imagined of the guy you are meant to be with someday, but what if that imaginary guy is also unrealistic? One who loved you at your worst, or the other, who left before you got to the worst? Is going for "Mr. Idk" settling? Or finally realizing what is important in life/love?
I keep telling myself, “This dude better be amazing if you give your heart/life to him... He better appreciate all you are, and be totally deserving of that.”... But what if he does appreciate me, and I’ve just been to “Goody Two Shoes” to appreciate him, for all that he is? What if the perfect guy is actually disguised as someone the world tells us to not get involved with, for a reason. Just like me. The person that finally recognizes me as something special, should be something special, because God gave him eyes to see the beauty in who I am. The world tells me that, by dating ‘that guy’, I’m cutting myself short, or settling... but the world’s way isn’t always the right way. What if the guy I’m meant to be isn’t Prince Charming, but instead, Prince Integrity? I just SO want to do things right, and I’m scared to do anything, because it could lead to failure. As a young Christian woman, I believe I owe it to myself, and to God, to focus less on the later, and more on the now. Why worry about something that is not meant for me in this moment? When I could be concentrating on what is!
As far as love, and "Mr. Right" goes, I can only pray that God give me the the insight to see him for all that he is, and the grace to appreciate him, the way I want him to appreciate me. :)
Peace-Love-Christ,
Clay
Friday, August 5, 2011
Testify!
"I am a Christian martyr. Chosen before I was conceived, to alter history. Given a chance at life to use my Voice for Him! I will sing His name to the reverberant hills, and cry out with truth and ecstasy because of His great love and forgiveness. Holy and righteous is His name!"
Your Call to Stand UP!
"The will to change the world is one thing... but the guts to actually take action, is another. :)"
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Control Freak?
LOL! So, I'm back! If you are like me, you probably prefer a situation to be predictable, promising, and controlled by... wait for it... you! Ha, ha! If so, no worries! Lately, the challenge of wanting to control EVERYTHING has lingered long and weighed heavily on the doorstep of my heart. So much of me knows that I am not ultimately in control of what happens, but sometimes, I still find myself trying to make life 'okay' or 'perfect'. Ha, ha! What was I thinking?
If you are still following, you probably know that the next step in the average control freak's world is FAILURE!! Have you ever wondered why? Maybe God allows us to fail, so that we can grow in the realization that He, and NOT WE, is in control! We are human, and obviously flawed, so how can anything that we determine to be right by our book, actually be right? It is when we are listening to our own desires and wants that we fall into the devil's trap, because we are no longer listening to our heavenly Father. While His lifestyle offers us persecution, trials and challenges, would you not rather that over an easy going life full of sin? I know that, when I stop to take a breath, I realize that the moments I was challenged in my walk the most, are the moments I treasure the deepest.
So why do we want to control ALL- THE- TIME?? Well, for me, my control issues are representations of my lack of faith and trust in God. You see, I am a girl who has been hurt (multiple times) and does not want to go back to that feeling of desperation again. When your heart breaks, and you realize that this human being you put so much trust into is actually a fraud... well, your heart breaks. I think I may have gotten tired of feeling my heart break, so I just decided to control everything. No relationships, no depending on anyone else, no risks... just me. When I took that leap, there was no going back. Suddenly, everything I did... I did. Sure, God was there beside me the whole time, but I did not acknowledge Him. This mindset of, "I can do anything you can do better", came into play. Although my few successes were all God, it was not until about two years later that I realized it. Everything I tried to control, tried to force, and even tried to create, just fell through. Something was there to catch me when I fell... but what? All my heartaches had occurred because I was putting faith in a human or materialistic object, and not in the everlasting Father figure of Christ.
That's what I love most about our heavenly Father. He is the greatest being, yet He is the quietest. With Him, it is not about boasting, flaunting or teasing... everything is simple, silent and sweet. Acts of love, true love. Love is not boastful, it does not flaunt or taunt... and when you think about it, that is God through and through. Silently loving and protecting us all. Never asking for acknowledgement or thank you's, just there for you when you need Him most.
So, to all my fellow control freaks... "Let go, and let God". Life will happen, and with life, pain and suffering... but what of the joys? Are we to cherish them or cast them aside? In the midst of your pain, when you just want to rely on yourself, imagine the outcome if you did... tell yourself, "Only He is big enough for this," and them give it all up to God. He is silent, but He is loving and protecting. When you are at your low, it is He that keeps your feet from dragging. Depend on Him, not on you. It's time to kiss those control freak days goodbye and become a Jesus Freak!!
Peace-Love-Christ,
Clay
If you are still following, you probably know that the next step in the average control freak's world is FAILURE!! Have you ever wondered why? Maybe God allows us to fail, so that we can grow in the realization that He, and NOT WE, is in control! We are human, and obviously flawed, so how can anything that we determine to be right by our book, actually be right? It is when we are listening to our own desires and wants that we fall into the devil's trap, because we are no longer listening to our heavenly Father. While His lifestyle offers us persecution, trials and challenges, would you not rather that over an easy going life full of sin? I know that, when I stop to take a breath, I realize that the moments I was challenged in my walk the most, are the moments I treasure the deepest.
So why do we want to control ALL- THE- TIME?? Well, for me, my control issues are representations of my lack of faith and trust in God. You see, I am a girl who has been hurt (multiple times) and does not want to go back to that feeling of desperation again. When your heart breaks, and you realize that this human being you put so much trust into is actually a fraud... well, your heart breaks. I think I may have gotten tired of feeling my heart break, so I just decided to control everything. No relationships, no depending on anyone else, no risks... just me. When I took that leap, there was no going back. Suddenly, everything I did... I did. Sure, God was there beside me the whole time, but I did not acknowledge Him. This mindset of, "I can do anything you can do better", came into play. Although my few successes were all God, it was not until about two years later that I realized it. Everything I tried to control, tried to force, and even tried to create, just fell through. Something was there to catch me when I fell... but what? All my heartaches had occurred because I was putting faith in a human or materialistic object, and not in the everlasting Father figure of Christ.
That's what I love most about our heavenly Father. He is the greatest being, yet He is the quietest. With Him, it is not about boasting, flaunting or teasing... everything is simple, silent and sweet. Acts of love, true love. Love is not boastful, it does not flaunt or taunt... and when you think about it, that is God through and through. Silently loving and protecting us all. Never asking for acknowledgement or thank you's, just there for you when you need Him most.
So, to all my fellow control freaks... "Let go, and let God". Life will happen, and with life, pain and suffering... but what of the joys? Are we to cherish them or cast them aside? In the midst of your pain, when you just want to rely on yourself, imagine the outcome if you did... tell yourself, "Only He is big enough for this," and them give it all up to God. He is silent, but He is loving and protecting. When you are at your low, it is He that keeps your feet from dragging. Depend on Him, not on you. It's time to kiss those control freak days goodbye and become a Jesus Freak!!
Peace-Love-Christ,
Clay
Friday, March 11, 2011
Are You Really Single?
It's been awhile since I've been able to post, but I'll take the time to XPress my feelings after speaking to a youth group this afternoon.
So much of who we determine ourselves to be is based on status, who we are and what we do, but what of who's we are?? Have we ever stopped to think that that might be what really counts? It is a pleasure to be able to speak with other kids etc., but the thing I'm most grateful for, is Him using me to speak. Little of what I say are my words, but even my words are His! It is so comforting to hear Him speak through me, so funny to hear my own words lecture myself! Ha, ha! To think that such a thing is possible!! The joy I have found in belonging to Him is one I will never be able to XPress! He is Love, He is Life, He is everything that lasts in eternity!! No man (or woman) can compete with that! There's no greater gift than this, "that He lay down His life for a friend". Christ's life is the greatest XPression of love! What a gift! I am so in love with Him! It's a comfort to know that I am 'taken', that I am 'in a relationship', and that I am 'in love'! Not in the world's view of love, but I Christ's view of love! There can be no greater gift than this satisfaction of being loved eternally and unconditionally!
If you are a teen reading this, know that I'm in the same boat as you are. Millions of teens all over the world are facing trials and temptations at this moment, but it is how we react to those situations that makes us different. You can set goals, make a plan, stick to that plan, but keep Him by your side through it all and you will not fail. You will prevail, and we will walk together in His presence in the end. Love your life, find the joy of your "Now", look to your "Tomorrow" as a gift from God, but look to your "Today" as your gift to God! You are His beloved... don't forget it!
Peace-Love-Christ,
Clay
So much of who we determine ourselves to be is based on status, who we are and what we do, but what of who's we are?? Have we ever stopped to think that that might be what really counts? It is a pleasure to be able to speak with other kids etc., but the thing I'm most grateful for, is Him using me to speak. Little of what I say are my words, but even my words are His! It is so comforting to hear Him speak through me, so funny to hear my own words lecture myself! Ha, ha! To think that such a thing is possible!! The joy I have found in belonging to Him is one I will never be able to XPress! He is Love, He is Life, He is everything that lasts in eternity!! No man (or woman) can compete with that! There's no greater gift than this, "that He lay down His life for a friend". Christ's life is the greatest XPression of love! What a gift! I am so in love with Him! It's a comfort to know that I am 'taken', that I am 'in a relationship', and that I am 'in love'! Not in the world's view of love, but I Christ's view of love! There can be no greater gift than this satisfaction of being loved eternally and unconditionally!
If you are a teen reading this, know that I'm in the same boat as you are. Millions of teens all over the world are facing trials and temptations at this moment, but it is how we react to those situations that makes us different. You can set goals, make a plan, stick to that plan, but keep Him by your side through it all and you will not fail. You will prevail, and we will walk together in His presence in the end. Love your life, find the joy of your "Now", look to your "Tomorrow" as a gift from God, but look to your "Today" as your gift to God! You are His beloved... don't forget it!
Peace-Love-Christ,
Clay
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